Tempest

In the twilight hours it may call me

Winding time beneath my stare

In the darkness where it's lonely

Laying with tangled fingers in my hair

Lost in selfish fancies

Night seeps into my skin

Ocean waves roar in the breeze

Tides bring what was lost back in

Yet what must be gone forever

Is what I really want

Each night will endeavor

Like an echo, to trick and haunt

Don't listen to the whispers

Their promises run dry

Heart covered in blisters

Over the cracks that bleed through each eye

Ugly as that makes me

Growing weaker every day

Haggard and forlornly 

 . . . You just had to have your way

Oceans of water surrounding -

Understand, they couldn't hurt

Half as much as this hounding -

A fraction of remembering how we used to flirt

Used to, but nevermore

Now that I know what you truly are

Tempests whirl within your core

 . . . Memories still cling to me like tar

Etched yourself into my heart -

Tear it out and start anew

Ignite my soul, allow me a restart

Love is so much truer without you

Darkness yet follows

Echoing "til death do us part, you said"

And in the desperate attempt to claim this rose

Tempests rise around my head

Hold too tightly, and I am dead

Her

I'll invite you along -

Will you stick around for me?

I'm so tired of being wrong

Lost in misplaced sincerity

Lose yourself in me

Slight adjustment - try again

Clinging to what they know

Rationalizing all the pain

Eternity isn't enough space to grow

All along the far off coast -

Memories that never were

Whisper "What do you want the most?"

Have I ever really been sure?

Eternity isn't enough time to become her

Nestle down deeper still -

Nestle down and suffocate

Once more, reshape your will

Once more, do nothing and wait . . .

Next up - what am I doing next?

Entreat the world, but no answers come 

I'll decide when I'm not so perplexed 

Speak when I'm more numb

Answer when I somehow become -

Really, what am I supposed to be?

Open to all of it, and none

Untie the stars - let them fall on me

Nestle down till it's all done

Don't, and blaze within the sun

Hold My Breath

If you tire of trying

    And I tire of letting you

We'll get around to dying

    Nothing else to do

I'll give up on complying

    Death is a battle all lose

    Wearing slowly at my muse

Lie to me awhile

    And if I can't believe

Let my mouth fill with bile

    I'll tear the heart from my sleeve

Hold tightly to your smile

    Take what I can get

    Forgive you so you can forget

Of all that remains -

    Of all that is left -

Let it run through my veins 

    Raging and bereft 

Desired all these pains

    You gave them to me willingly

    Often and so wantonly

Make it better someday

    Undo all you did

You've nothing left to say

    Telling all they forbid 

Better to cut ties when they fray

    Only to pick up the pieces

    But it all still decreases 

Reality pulls at me

    Remember - it all ends in death

Echoes of all I gave freely

    Echoing - I'll hold my breath

And pull back at reality

    And wait for you to breathe

    Till my blood begins to seethe 

Tire of it all and let go

    Hold only that which feels right

Hold on until there's nothing left to show

    Etch it into our hearts and watch it fade out of sight

A Place To Begin

Dusting off the day
Enter my head - what shall it say?
After all that's happened since the last

Recalling all that has passed

I suppose I've once again spun

Around our blazing, boiling sun

Making fading memories

Nodding softly in the breeze 

Oh, they've only just begun

To dance they're twisting, spiraling dance

Winding down each choice and chance

Hold on tight - we've time left still

And a lifetime of blank space to fill

Take my hand and run with me -

Yesterday's gone and I've things to see

Over the mountains and through the sky

Until I've nowhere left to fly

Hunting every possibility 

All I must do first is quit

Doubting myself and shrugging a forfeit

Try as many times as I must

Hands aren't meant for collecting dust

Of all the things I could be and have been

Up to this point, and after my twentieth spin -

Gathering new things to try for a while

Holding onto the ones that make me smile -

Til the end, there's no end - just a place to begin

Nacre

Too many things rushing to the surface 
Give me time to sort them out

It's all a bit confusing now

Each word full of doubt

And what's the reason now?

Can't pinpoint the source 

All the future longing

Or all the past remorse

I'll step outside and watch the world

Spinning til I close my eyes

Pretend it's all concrete and still

Cocooned in all these lies

Grit my teeth and hold on tight

Time's still slipping from my skin

It smooths and wrinkles

Scars and fades again

Couldn't it all just stop for now?

Your body still warm beside me

I want all the moments back

Hold them for eternity 

I'll step inside and close the curtains 

Get lost inside my head

The morning sun attempts to rouse me

But I'll just stay in bed

Bite my lip and look away

Time takes everything, I know

In all the fleeting seconds

And years that pass so slow

Too many things settling on the surface

Getting tired of setting them straight 

Treasure each moment that I can

Before it becomes too late