Sunday, January 23, 2022

Only Stay Forever

Only stay forever
Caressing my cold hands
Captured in the moment
All my breath expands

Still hanging in the air
In clouds about my head
Once more - fill and release
Nothing needing to be said

And we'll say it anyway
Like it's all of top most import
Like the future takes shape with our words
You'll always give your best retort

I'll soak it all in to warm me
Dreaming up arguments too
Occasionally, I don't like people all that much
No - but I always like you

Trekking through the snow
Lashes blinking flakes away
I'll hold what I can
Knowing it'll all be gone someday 

Experiencing each footfall
Perfect patterns in the snow
Expanding each moment
Only staying forever, you know -

Placing each foot carefully 
Like the pattern will always show
Echoes of when forever started to grow

Sunday, January 9, 2022

Sap

I'm tired of trying to sound clever
Of putting on a thoughtful face
And pondering this and that
I just feel out of place
I'm tired of people avoiding my gaze
And looking behind my back
I'm tired of explaining myself
And everything I lack

I'm tired of complaining
About things that don't truly matter
Covered in anxiety and lies
Take it all away, I'll shatter

I'll wallow in self-pity
And wish things would change
But stay within my comfort zone
Never finding my true rage
I'll write forever and say nothing at all
It's all nonsense and lies
I'll push your memory from my head
But dream of your eyes

I can't be happy, not today -
Everything is normal, see?
I can't be sad, not right now -
Numbness has ahold on me

Disjointed, disconnected
Stringed together verse
Daydreams filling my life
Watch them all disperse
Time goes so slowly
I feel so old, so young
Yet I feel younger than I once was
Falling back another wrung

I'm cold and overstimulated 
Birds chirping in one ear
While music blasts in the other
Trying to forget I'm here

I'm tired of thinking
But I doubt I'll ever quit
Ideas dying all around me
Just another thing to forget
I'll never be good enough for myself
I'll never find someone who disagrees 
Wholeheartedly enough to convince me otherwise
Everyone blows away in the breeze

I'm tired of trying to sound clever
So I didn't try this time
It's just a bundle of silly thoughts
Held together with a rhyme