Ember

In between each decision 

Do your thoughts bend and sway? 

Over-analyzed everything 

Now it's all turned to gray

Or do you always feel 

Totally unambiguous and right?

Told you every variable 

How they fade from your sight 

In between every ending 

New beginnings prance about 

Knowing this helps nothing 

I'll still cling to every doubt 

Can't it all just be better?

Acknowledging that's a lot to ask 

Never stopped me from trying 

Destined to break or finish every task 

Our days are numbered, our skin is frail 

Time seeps on and on

Holding tight, here and now

Is it worth it once it's gone?

Slow and venomous, they pile up

All the little disappointing things 

Now they inhabit all of it 

Yanking all our strings 

Moving between each decision

Or figuring out how long we can delay 

Risking the inevitable 

Ember shall burn through it all someday 

730

It's all just days and days

Stacking up together

It's all an ongoing attempt 

To learn how to be better

Learning how to disagree 

Without saying something I regret 

Learning how to voice my needs

Without getting upset 

Two years and there's still

So much that I don't know

So much time trying to learn

Yet so much space left to grow

All the days that I stumbled

Each time the words came out wrong 

When my anxieties surged 

And I didn't feel strong

Through it all, you remained 

Steadfast and true 

I always tried to be self sufficient

Now I'm trying to learn how to rely on you

 

I've never been a fast learner 

But this much at least I understand

The lessons are less daunting 

When you're there to hold my hand

It's all just days and days

730 since we've been together 

And I don't want to ever go back

Because I've found something better