Sunday, September 29, 2019

Whatever

Wind rushing through my hair
Heart racing through it all
After everything is said and done
The tether frays and down I fall

Enlighten me to the ways of the world
Vigilantly, tell me what to fear
Enjoy what we have today
Racing to when it's no longer here

Yearning for what you pushed away
Ostensibly, I'll take no blame
Ubiquitous as guilt is
Always feigning we're not the same

Rain spattering on my skin
Endings speckling the sky
Farewell to the stars and clouds
Enthralled with the question "Why?"

Equity, it blinded me
Little excuses piled around you
I fabricated every one
Never believing what I always knew

Going forward with no destination in sight
I was clinging to something facile
Simple as I thought it'd be
Altogether underestimating the hassle

Lightning striking behind my eyes
Life smacking me with reality
Remembering what I swore I'd forget
Instilled so many silly things in me

Go now and don't come back
However much I don't know if that's what I want
The tether frays and I fall
Catch me in your final taunt

Heart racing through the wind
I'll stand in the spitting rain
Laughing at the patterns in the sky
Diligently moving on again

Sunday, September 15, 2019

Autumn

I'll waste time doing nothing at all
Just watching the leaves as they start to fall
Until my conscience tickles my head
Shiver with the realization - it won't be long til I'm dead

Trace my life across the sky
Never allowing myself to ask you why
Etch the knowledge into my skin
Ending just when we begin

Dare to question what was always right
Eerie and evident - but I won't fight
Dance with the devil - get lost in their eyes
Shockingly angelic - perhaps it's all lies

Only just tiptoeing across the line
Make believe it will all be fine
Enjoy it for now - I suppose we must
Our weary hearts will start to rust

Nearing the end - don't ruin it yet
Enduring forever - I wouldn't bet
Ask once more, "What is it you want?"
Risk it all - it will always haunt

Or perhaps we'll forget, by and by
Unless my conscience doesn't stop questioning why
Never allowing anything at all
Dare to stand - I dared to fall

Death will greet me with a friendly smile
Enjoyed every moment for my small while
Ask once more, but I want nothing, my dear
Risk it all - let it go - and draw me near

Sunday, September 1, 2019

Sawdust

Teach me how to think again
Head full of sawdust - where to begin
Ending alone in this room
Dust hanging thick - I have no broom

Always running out of things to say
Run your mouth anyway
Keep my lips pressed tightly down
Enjoying the sensation, they'll still frown

Roll my eyes right out of my head
Tell me all the things I never said
He'll never get it right, you know
Expressions never truly the truth show

Worn down by time and sand
Empty now - push and I won't stand
All together - give one last shove
Tighten your grip and call it love

Heart full of sawdust - I'll breathe it out of my lungs
Entangled here - they speak in tongues
Run your finger down their spine
Touching lies - they say it's fine

How is it nothing moves anymore?
Exiting, if only you'd open the door
Beating constantly at my empty head
Enjoying the sensation, though I'm dead

Teach me how to feel again
Touch nothing at all - where to begin
Ending alone in this place
Reach for me and blur my face

Though I cannot give you a reason why
Hearken to this final cry -
Etch it in your empty mind
Save it where you'll always find -

Tomorrow is a brand new day
Our empty heads won't remember mistakes anyway
Running onward where the future looms
Moreover - I have found some brooms