Reflections

So what is left to be said?

Forcing words out nonetheless 

Your brain has long since been squeezed out

Yet still you press

Catching every useless dripping

To stain the page like ink

Clinging to every tenet 

To drink

And drink

And drink

Why are you here?

Scrolling again

Just searching for

A place to fit in

Guzzle down their words

Absorb what they say

It doesn't matter if others leave -

You can't trust them anyway

Just keep coming back

To feed your dear vanity 

Shut all else out, for you know -

"The only one capable of understanding is me

Me

ME"

Yet who are you now?

Lost in everything they've said

Denying what doesn't suit you

While your biases get fed

Let others disagree

Let them cling to their lies

You know the truth

Though the whole world denies 

It's their loss if they refuse

To bask in the glory you've shown

It doesn't matter if you're forever

And ever

And ever

Alone

Still

So shall I have a profound thought today

Amidst all this open air?

With still water stretching on and on

And leaves falling without a care

Sitting talking to empty space

Because you're not there

The sun bringing sweat to my brow

The wind sending shivers up my spine

It's all an ongoing balancing act

And I can't toe the line

Regardless of every possible thought

Still the sun will shine

And what am I, amidst this air

Amidst all possibility?

A speck of dust in a finite world

A speck in a universe of infinity 

Amidst all the things I could have been -

Who am I to still be me?

Profound enough?  I don't know -

Have I fulfilled the quota of the day?

When the same wind that chills my bones

Allows the leaves to play

How can I still my tumbling mind

And find something worth trying to say?

Still sitting talking to empty space

Because you're still asleep 

Amidst this cold night warmed by you -

This shallow haven in a neverending deep 

The world will go on without me

Still - these moments are mine to keep

Irregardless

There were holes before I met you

There will be holes when you are gone

Every night I'll sink to nothingness

And in the morning, greet the dawn 

I'm missing too many pieces 

My soul leaks through the cracks 

I'm running out of time again 

And the feelings only wax

I'll drown beneath the drippings 

I'll watch me disappear

I didn't move fast enough

And now I'm stranded here

Searching for silver linings 

In a sheet of gray sky

I'll grasp at them tightly

Never knowing how to say goodbye

I'll tear it all to pieces 

Rip until I can see blue

I'll pull myself together

Until I can't seep through

Every night I'll expand to eternity 

And in the morning, greet the dawn 

I was whole before I met you

I will be whole when you are gone