Balance

Here lies my sanity
Lost to vanity
And remorse

Here stands my integrity
Bolstered by sincerity
And sheer force

There was uncertainty
Caused by adversity
And fear

There was tenacity
Thanks to veracity
And the fact that you're here


So here lies my dilemma
A bit of an enigma
Watch it grow

Here stands my charisma
Induced by drama
Start the show

So there was trauma
Causing a slight coma
It did impede

There was a stigma
Hindering my breath like asthma
Watch me bleed


Here we bleed in silence
Dripping with no resistance
Like rain

Here we breed compliance
Disguised as defiance
We bring pain

There was so much reliance
On harsh words and violence
And force

There will be balance
Caused by truthful guidance
And remorse 

Inclined to Smile

Forego with caution
Lightly judge or don't
Oversimplify it
Call it necessary, I won't

Cold air swirls around me
Inside I am warm
Nightly dreams attack me
Answers in the storm

Undergo the treatment
Cast away your heart
Insist it all was worth it
Nothing tears us apart

Inclined to smile
Harsh winds do blow
Ice grows around me
Little do I know

If it speaks to you
Perhaps you've gone insane
If it pleases me
Life will fill with pain

Inch by inch we travel
Foot by foot we stride
Ill-equipped to function
Cry caution to all that ride

Action of course speaks louder
Telling every nation
I'll fade away now
Overcome with elation

Notwithstanding my floccinaucinihilipilification

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Floccinaucinihilipilification: the [action or] habit of estimating something as worthless

Valiant Blush

Touched by dreams or not
Hitherto I've never been shot
Except with bullet shaped remarks
Peppering me like red hot sparks

Understand that I'm not for you
Rather like the color blue -
Perhaps you like it, but that doesn't make it yours
Only if we're both shot through our cores

Softly tread - I'm on eggshells now
Earnest words are all that I'll allow
Offer them to me with a smile
Forever and always, or just for a while

Likened to paint on a wall
It will fade, or chip away and fall
Forgetting that, I'll develop a blush
Enthralled by this silly rush

I know the risk - the inevitable end
Still, my heart to you I lend
Tender as it may be, I know
One hole still bleeding from cupid's bow

Love shot me through the core
Insisting I want you evermore
Valiantly, to you my all I'll give
Every day, for as long as I live

Eden

Reaching outward for
What lacks within
Old dreams smothering me
My head starts to spin
Speaking softly
Though I want to scream
Escape isn't possible
Outside of a dream

Creating problems
Where there were none
Outwardly reaching
Inside I run
Laughing though it
Brings me no joy
Onward march
Like a windup toy

Recent or not
The pain is still fresh
Echos of tears
Watch me as I thresh
Delicate beatings
Slight words of regret
Goodness didn't win
The challenge never met

Love never hurt me
For it never came at all
Always lacking something
I'm bound to always fall
Sensibility has shown itself
Not once since I was born
So between two fantasies
I am stretched and torn

Pulled apart over nothing
I cannot pull myself free
In a conscious state
Paradise eluded me
Incapable of finding Eden
I settled for a dream
Still speaking softly
Inside I scream

Addicted To Words

Allow me to
Deviate from the truth
Devoted yet -
Indeed, since my youth

Careful now
True colors shining through
Enter at your own risk
Doubting everyone like you

Together we'll make it
Or perhaps not
Wonder if we'll ever make sense
Out of someone else's thought

Real in a way - like
Dissimulation
Swallow it up -
      It's my fix[ation]