Reaching outward for
What lacks within
Old dreams smothering me
My head starts to spin
Speaking softly
Though I want to scream
Escape isn't possible
Outside of a dream
Creating problems
Where there were none
Outwardly reaching
Inside I run
Laughing though it
Brings me no joy
Onward march
Like a windup toy
Recent or not
The pain is still fresh
Echos of tears
Watch me as I thresh
Delicate beatings
Slight words of regret
Goodness didn't win
The challenge never met
Love never hurt me
For it never came at all
Always lacking something
I'm bound to always fall
Sensibility has shown itself
Not once since I was born
So between two fantasies
I am stretched and torn
Pulled apart over nothing
I cannot pull myself free
In a conscious state
Paradise eluded me
Incapable of finding Eden
I settled for a dream
Still speaking softly
Inside I scream
What lacks within
Old dreams smothering me
My head starts to spin
Speaking softly
Though I want to scream
Escape isn't possible
Outside of a dream
Creating problems
Where there were none
Outwardly reaching
Inside I run
Laughing though it
Brings me no joy
Onward march
Like a windup toy
Recent or not
The pain is still fresh
Echos of tears
Watch me as I thresh
Delicate beatings
Slight words of regret
Goodness didn't win
The challenge never met
Love never hurt me
For it never came at all
Always lacking something
I'm bound to always fall
Sensibility has shown itself
Not once since I was born
So between two fantasies
I am stretched and torn
Pulled apart over nothing
I cannot pull myself free
In a conscious state
Paradise eluded me
Incapable of finding Eden
I settled for a dream
Still speaking softly
Inside I scream
DON'T WORRY about me
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Just notice her smile
Don't look in her eyes
I used the ice
to soothe my pain
I'll pay the price
and play the game
What could have been
Without the cold
No break from sin
Just break the mold
To free my heart
Wounds from that knife
Take it apart
And restart...
In rope around her neck she'll tie
A fancy knot to halt her breath
The pain is great and she can't cry
To end the hurt, she welcomes...
If the body does get found
Cut the knot and let it down
Hide the corpse within the ground
Beneath a rock "Here lies a Clown"
Close your eyes and fall asleep
Whilst you dream of cloudy sheep
I'll find the coffin in your size
To keep you safe from worms and flies
The ghosts no longer lie below
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Going places they never aspired
I've been so busy; I feel so tired
If the time cannot be found
To create words that will astound
I'll shrug my shoulders - it's no surprise
And manage to smile up to my eyes
You'll write three - I only one
They're moving slowly - watch me run
Run out of time - I've things to do
Held together by force and glue
They jump the gun, and then the ship
I'll spin and twirl and get a grip
On the aspirations tied 'round my throat
And fashion them into the words I wrote