Love Lacked

I locked myself in my room just to see if I'd be missed
Put on lipstick just to see if I'd be kissed
Went to you just to get a dismiss
Started climbing just to fall back into the abyss

Couldn't pay the bill because I got mugged
Couldn't taste the vodka because I chugged
Couldn't stay standing because you had to tug
Couldn't get away because you had me trapped in a hug

I smiled and you didn't care that it was faked
I gave you an icy stare and you hit me until it was thawed and baked
I got a job and the money from it you take
I followed in your footsteps and cower in your wake

Couldn't stand up to you because my words choked
Couldn't taste the food because I smoked
Couldn't laugh because you couldn't take a joke
Couldn't care because my heart broke

I broke the TV just because of how much you played
Came home late just because it hadn't been okayed
Stole your laptop just to make you pay
Caused you so much trouble just so you wouldn't chase after me when I ran away

Couldn't stay because I got flogged
Couldn't take anything with me because of how much you hogged
Couldn't run because my legs had been beaten and so took off at a jog
Couldn't care less because I needed to disappear into the fog

I ran away to find the love that you lacked
Went far away and here is a fact
Even if you chase after me and promise that you'll no longer thwack
Even then I am never coming back

Waves

Softly, gently, ebb and flow
Smile warmly, no where to go
Little raindrops falling on our heads
Watering our flowerbeds
Quiet tides rolling on the beach
"Come play with us," they beseech

Dripping and dropping, telling us that
It is raining dogs and cat
Big fat drops rolling down the roof
Soaking all that's not waterproof
Flooding, pushing, stirring the street
Yelling and chanting, "We won't be discreet!"

Thunder and lightning, a crash and a bang
Alarm bells ringing with a clang
Raining, icy drops biting our skin
The devil paying us back for our sin
Crashing waves tipping over a boat
"Don't you love the sea?" the waters quote

Slowly, slowly, the storm slips away
Promises of a better day
No more raindrops, not for now
The clouds leave us with a bow
Moods improve along with the sky
The water waves, "So long and goodbye."

A Time To Hang On

There is a time to build up
And not break down
There is a time to smile
Even if you want to frown
There is a time to stand against someone
And there is a time to stand together and heal
There is a time to look away
And a time to face what is real

There is a time to be strong
And a time to let yourself cry
There is a time to nod and accept
And a time to ask why
I'd thought it was my time to rise up
But instead I had to fall
I'd thought it was my time to win
But instead I lost it all

I tried to stand together
But I just couldn't heal
I tried to face the facts
But I didn't want to feel
I tried so hard to keep going
But instead I had to cry
I tried to accept defeat
But to the universe I demanded, "Why?"

I don't have enough strength
Don't know how to heal
Don't know how to keep smiling
When I see what is real
To heal and be happy
I have to move on but I'm stuck in one place
To be strong and face the truth
I have to accept that I'll never again see your face

But still I hang on to the memory of you
Wishing with all of my heart that you hadn't had to die
But still you do not come back to me
And I cry out to the universe, "Why?"
Nothing answers me
And so I blink back tears and look away
Nothing answers me
So I close my eyes, thankful that I have strength enough to hang on another day

Countdown Hero

Zero
Until I wake up and play superhero
One
Let's get some friends to have some fun
Two
I bet anything I can beat you
Three
Let's do two against me
Four
Now we've got an even score
Five
You're dead in the game, stop acting so alive
Six
Come on, we can put the other team in a fix
Seven
Maybe we'll make it up to eleven!
Eight
Why are you so late?
Nine
No don't go home, I'm sure you'll be fine...
Eight
She had to go home so she wouldn't be late
Seven
Too bad we haven't got eleven
Six
He had to go give his bike a fix
Five
She had to go feed her fish so they'd stay alive
Four
I can't remember - what's the score?
Three
Why's everyone going home except for me?
Two
So I guess it's just me and you
One
I guess we can all meet up again tomorrow for some more fun
Zero
Because now I've gone to bed, dreaming of being a hero

Fishing For Stars

Where are you going, little child?
Where are you taking your fishing pole in this weather so wild?
It's blizzarding out, cold as can be
Why don't you stay here by the fire with me?

   "I'm going out to catch a star
The wind from the blizzard will take my line far
I'll bring you home a wish if I catch a lucky one
And I'll tell you all about it when I'm home again and done."

But, child, in this weather the snowflakes make a crowd
The sky's so busy; what if your line can only catch a cloud?
Stay inside; there's no stars out tonight
Look out there; can you see any light?

   "The stars are there, you just have to search, explore
The sky is busy, but there's always room for one more
So what if I catch I cloud?  I can just recast
It may take a while, but there's no need to go fast."

Is a star really worth it?  Come, child, tell me
It's just a light; does it matter, truly?
Is it worth your time, effort, your cold casting finger?
Is it just a passing fancy, or will your wish for a star linger?

   "It's not a passing fancy; it's hope, a light in the rain
It's my dream, my life . . . I don't really know how to explain
But it's worth the time, effort, cold, and everything else, near and far
Now I must bid thee goodnight for, as you know, I am out to catch a star."