Dried Paint

Waiting for the grass to grow

And for the paint to dry

Waiting for myself to stop

Watching the night sky

Waiting for the phone to ring

For you to want to talk

Waiting for the seas to drain

And for the trees to walk

Waiting for the lines to sound

Right in every way

Waiting for the pain to leave

And for the love to stay

Waiting for you to show

That you really care

Waiting to breathe in water

And swim through air

Waiting for the storm inside

To finally make a sound

Waiting for it to matter

When I'm not around

Waiting for the courage

Waiting to catch a break

Waiting for my hands to still

And for the mountains to shake

Waiting all of my life

Waiting just to know

That I should have stopped waiting

A long, long time ago

Eternity

Ask me questions I can't answer 

Little words that captivate

Light a spark behind my eyes 

Eternity isn't too long to wait

Letting all the old thoughts softly abate

Show me what could never have been

Twisted as it was before

Adrift in crushing upheaval

Yet stagnant at its core

Who knew it could be so much more?

Show me what is possible now

Everything as it should be

Show me all the silver linings 

Held within infinity 

All within a moment of you holding me

I'll answer questions you never asked 

Tangled webs to hide behind

Hidden meanings left undisturbed 

Mysteries you'll never find

Echoes of thoughts I revise and rewind

Light a spark and watch it blaze

Lingering unto the night

Moments stretching into days

Onward into the light

Void of all but warmth and rays

Eternity drifting out of sight

Ramblings

I'll wander around idly

Tracing patterns in the air

Wondering forever

I'll shut my eyes and stare

Listing things off carefully

Leaping before I look

Taking each step boldly

Thinking of how my hands shook

Still searching for silver linings

In all there is to see

Still trying to find something -

Still searching for me

In all the endless words

That swarm about my head

In all this endless world

That'll plague me till I'm dead

And all the things I told me

All I maintained to be true

Are all the things that I forget

Sitting here with you

Maybe that's alright

Maybe it never mattered anyway

Sitting here quietly 

I'll watch the patterns fray

Only Stay Forever

Only stay forever

Caressing my cold hands

Captured in the moment

All my breath expands

Still hanging in the air

In clouds about my head

Once more - fill and release

Nothing needing to be said

And we'll say it anyway

Like it's all of top most import

Like the future takes shape with our words

You'll always give your best retort

I'll soak it all in to warm me

Dreaming up arguments too

Occasionally, I don't like people all that much

No - but I always like you

Trekking through the snow

Lashes blinking flakes away

I'll hold what I can

Knowing it'll all be gone someday 

Experiencing each footfall

Perfect patterns in the snow

Expanding each moment

Only staying forever, you know -

Placing each foot carefully 

Like the pattern will always show

Echoes of when forever started to grow

Sap

I'm tired of trying to sound clever

Of putting on a thoughtful face

And pondering this and that

I just feel out of place

I'm tired of people avoiding my gaze

And looking behind my back

I'm tired of explaining myself

And everything I lack

I'm tired of complaining

About things that don't truly matter

Covered in anxiety and lies

Take it all away, I'll shatter

I'll wallow in self-pity

And wish things would change

But stay within my comfort zone

Never finding my true rage

I'll write forever and say nothing at all

It's all nonsense and lies

I'll push your memory from my head

But dream of your eyes

I can't be happy, not today -

Everything is normal, see?

I can't be sad, not right now -

Numbness has ahold on me

Disjointed, disconnected

Stringed together verse

Daydreams filling my life

Watch them all disperse

Time goes so slowly

I feel so old, so young

Yet I feel younger than I once was

Falling back another wrung

I'm cold and overstimulated 

Birds chirping in one ear

While music blasts in the other

Trying to forget I'm here

I'm tired of thinking

But I doubt I'll ever quit

Ideas dying all around me

Just another thing to forget

I'll never be good enough for myself

I'll never find someone who disagrees 

Wholeheartedly enough to convince me otherwise

Everyone blows away in the breeze

I'm tired of trying to sound clever

So I didn't try this time

It's just a bundle of silly thoughts

Held together with a rhyme