Starlight

Endeavor to paint a picture

Of all the changing skies

I'll do my best to draw in starlight 

So I can see it reflected in your eyes

As it all gets blinked away

I'll sigh and try again

Always trying to remember

What it was like back then

Absorbing all the ink

That leaks from my hand

It's all an endless cycle

Contracting just to expand

Each word is such a struggle

Slipping from my mind

The more I try to build them

The faster they unwind

There's a rhythm and rush now

Pulling at my skin

What am I doing here?

Wasting time again

How long can this go on?

Forever, and just today

It all fades in and out

Searching for something to say

Absorbing words to leak them

Living days to forget

Time marches on

And I haven't figured out the reason for it

Though I relearn it every day

It never sticks around

Though I find it often

There's nothing really to be found

Endeavoring to find a moment

Of surety beneath these skies

I'll breathe in starlight

And watch it reflect in your eyes

All Else Shall Move

Tangled in starlight

Heaven shining through

Reach for a moment

Of time spent with you

Under this new beginning 

Guess eternally at ours

How we met each other though

An alignment of the stars

Never giving this away

All the brightness in your eyes

Like all the blazing heavens

Ignited by sparked fireflies 

Guided by the breeze

Night's breath in the air 

Moments may be gone

Echoes find us there

New connections shining through

Tracing your fingers with mine

Oblivious to all else

Feelings shiver down my spine 

The stars align just for us

Heaven and cosmos approve 

Ethereal as this is

Stay with me - all else shall move

Tangled in this life

All I want to do -

Reap all of my days

Spend each one with you

Maybe

Maybe it doesn't mean anything at all

Maybe it's better that way

To let it all fade and forget

Rather than holding onto yesterday -

Because I suppose I had to be lying

When I said that I needed you

Because I'm surviving just fine now

. . . I guess I just wanted you to say it too

And maybe I'll understand it all someday

Or maybe I won't even care

And I'll forget how it felt to have your arms around me

And the feeling of my fingers in your hair -

Because I suppose I had to be lying

Said I'd always love you even though

Love was something you would profess

But never could show

Maybe I was just fooling myself

Maybe it never meant as much as I thought

Because I spent too many tears

On moments that weren't worth being bought -

Because I suppose you had to be lying

When you said I was worth it

When you said you'd hold on this time

And promised we would never be a regret

Maybe there's a lesson to be learned

But I doubt I'll let it sink in

Because I can't quite hide away my heart

Just because of when -

We both lied to ourselves

And to each other too

And let go of everything else

To hold onto me and you

Everlasting Moments

Take what I can from the day

Hold some of it and release

Empty out my lungs for a moment -

Momentarily find peace

Instead of letting thoughts run circles -

Running rampant in my head

Attempt to find stillness

Collecting all the nice things you've ever said

Like picking out stars

Effulgent in all that onyx 

Overcome by all the noise -

Focus only on the harmonics 

Holding heat in my hands

Out of touch with all the rest

The miracle of hot coffee 

Chasing coldness from my chest

Observe the rising steam

Fluid in the air

Fading with each breath

Ebbing without a care -

Everlasting moments reside there

Rubble

I feel myself crumbling

Why - I don't know

It's just something that happens

Like how waters flow

Like the dimming of stars

Blackened by clouds

Rain pattering softly

Eternity enshrouds 

And when ends the rain -

Knowing it must

My soul shall replenish 

Yesterday shall rust

Hush now - for now

Echoes of fear

Attack not my thoughts

Reign terror not here

This too shall pass

I know that it will

Nothing lasts forever

Though there's rain on my sill

Wash it away

Or pretend it's not there

Maybe it won't matter

Or maybe I won't care

Rest easy - try

Echoes don't sleep

Thoughts needn't cycle but -

I always burrow in deep

My mind goes in circles

Each time that it rains

Still, I come back to the water

To fill up my veins 

How it surges in me

Acidic and vile

Now watch it spread out

Yet stay here awhile

Onward I'll look

Undiscovered I peer 

Caught up in the feeling

Of uncertainty and fear

Uncertain, yet sure

Life could never be so easy

Didn't I learn my lesson?

Empty out - let it fill me

Vast fractures covering

Echoing - I still don't know

Rain pours, demolishing 

Dust settles and starts to show -

Out of the rubble, better things will grow