Morning Dreamer

Maybe I could change it

Or pretend I'm not me

Naturally, forget 

Cast my gaze to the sea

Or perhaps to the sky

Everyone asks why

Until I concede 

Rambling on about it still 

Battering and bruising my will

And my heart may bleed

Till I wake one bland day 

Like one from a cocoon

And life will start to weigh 

Calloused and lonely moon

Had to please everyone

And let go of the sun

Maybe I could change

And chase after what I desire 

Dreaming always of that fire

Escape pressures range 

Pulled back to the morning

Or to a flaming dream

Until they give warning

Rush away from each beam 

Told what to be and do

Oh, if I could be you

I'd choose to be a morning dreamer - it's true

If We Never Forget

I knew you before we met

    I'll push back the memories and try to forget

Felt things I couldn't admit to yet

    Fading thoughts of what we'll never get

We stayed to watch the credits end

    Writing messages I'll never send

Enjoyed the presence of such a close friend 

    Each heartache is so hard to mend

Never felt like that before

    Not sure what it was all for

Every smile made my heart soar

    Every memory has left my heart sore

Verily amazed by our similarities 

    Vast as our differences may be

Each day connecting more wholly 

    Echoes of each thing you couldn't accept about me

Reality never made more sense, it's true

    Relapsing is still such a tempting thing to do

Felt more myself when I was with you

    Falling in addiction with love too

Our fingers gently intertwined

    Our moments forever stuck in my mind

Rambling words, soft and kind

    Rash decisions that we can't rewind

Gone were the days of loneliness

    Gone are the days I can't help but miss

Etching yourself deeper into my heart with each kiss

    Echoes of such forsaken bliss

Told me you wanted to hold on and we'd never let go of this

    Told me to hold on, and then you let go of us 

Flurries

Just because I'm not sure - 

Already lost in the rain

I'll still attempt to be her

Land on my feet again

And hit the ground running

Failing always to be so stunning

Like one caught in a daze

Actions spinning round my head

Make up my mind when I am dead

Maybe it's all just a phase

Endings only spur the fire

And it's only right that this is so

Limits only strengthen desire -

Already prepared to watch you go

My soul is ablaze and it has a right to be

Etch it in your mind: you have no right to me

Etch it in your heart and watch it bleed

Take it away, I will go without

Just trying to lose the doubt

Etch it in my heart, make it my creed

Does it really have to go like this?

Or couldn't it be better?

It's all been a swing and a miss

Still feeling I've never met her

Life continues, again and again -

Always losing myself in the rain

Vast plethora's soaking me

Over my head, stuck in a daze

I'll watch my soul, still ablaze

Really, it has every right to be

Captivate

What shall I do now?

Oh, if only I knew

Uncertainty bathes my head

Like my thoughts of you

Don't want to think

In these silly circles anymore

Twirling in memories and dreams

Buried in rambling words from times before

Endings aren't definite

Time makes them a reality 

Only, I don't want it to

Observe how ridiculous I can be

Days will pass - I'll be fine
Reality will eventually dispel
All the heartache and memories
My pen wishes to tell

Advised against it - still I hoped

Though I knew you'd never be mine

I let myself wonder -

Could our fates intertwine?

Too dramatic and bookworm-ish 

Only, that's what I liked most about you

Said such wonderful things

And I wanted to believe they were true

You captivated me, and then you let me go too

Resolutions

Today life took me by the hand

Gave it a tug and told me to stand

I simply scowled and pulled away

"Just what do you think you're doing?" I had to say

I crossed my arms and asked life, "Well?

What gives you the right to make me stand when you're the reason I fell?

I have no strength to deal with you today

Just give me a break until I feel okay

You've been so difficult - you've been so hard

You shattered my heart and cut me with its shard

You've tested me - you made me cry

Yet I kept struggling - I really did try

Well, I'm tired of trying - just let me rest

I simply can't keep giving you my best

It's just never enough for you

You cause trouble no matter what I do"

Life looked at me, then shook its head

"Are you done complaining yet?" it said

"So I've been difficult - what did you expect?

I offer no satisfaction guarantee, last I checked

If I came with a warning straight from the start

It'd say "Guaranteed to break your heart

Without a doubt will make you cry

And shall always leave you wondering why"

This is simply the hand you had to be dealt

And with each heartache that you felt

With each stress induced gray hair

And every time you wished you didn't care

You grew, my dear - you're growing still

Expanding your mind and strengthening your will

I test you, yes, even more than usual last year

And now you're so much more you than you used to be, my dear

Would you rather I be easy - never require you to change?

Would you rather stay put and never find your true range?

I will forever continue to test you, it's true

The only variable is: what will you do?"

I looked long and hard at life, then said simply

"Since you're bound to be you, and now that I'm me

I will not ask for no tests or trouble this year

I shall simply make one resolution: I resolve to persevere"