Irregardless

There were holes before I met you

There will be holes when you are gone

Every night I'll sink to nothingness

And in the morning, greet the dawn 

I'm missing too many pieces 

My soul leaks through the cracks 

I'm running out of time again 

And the feelings only wax

I'll drown beneath the drippings 

I'll watch me disappear

I didn't move fast enough

And now I'm stranded here

Searching for silver linings 

In a sheet of gray sky

I'll grasp at them tightly

Never knowing how to say goodbye

I'll tear it all to pieces 

Rip until I can see blue

I'll pull myself together

Until I can't seep through

Every night I'll expand to eternity 

And in the morning, greet the dawn 

I was whole before I met you

I will be whole when you are gone  

Erosion

If I were a mystery 

And this was a clue

Maybe you could find me

Buried beneath everything you thought you knew

Denying it one more time

Eroding my very core

All it wastes is my prime

Maybe I don't want to waste it anymore

If I just keep holding on

If I continue to wait

Confined inside the lines you've drawn

Will your feelings abate?

Or am I just prolonging 

An inevitable storm

Striving for a sense of belonging

And love to keep me warm

If I remain a mystery

And all my explanations you refuse 

Just be careful I don't find me

Before you realize how much you've got to lose

365

It's all just days and days

They added up quite fast

It's all an ongoing attempt

To create something that will last

Something worth holding onto -

To be worth it to someone

Something to grow into

When it's all said and done

It's all just little moments

Adding up every day

It's all a futile attempt 

At finding the right words to say

Because words always fall flat

In comparison to 

The brightness in your eyes

And what I feel for you

It's all just chemicals

Bouncing around inside my head

It's all comfort and warmth

Filled with flames that we fed

Been burning for a year now

But that's silly, you know -

It started long before then

I just tried not to let it show

It's all just a choice

I've chosen you every day

It's all comfort and warmth

Knowing I wouldn't want it any other way

Dust

In all the ways we could have done better

In all the broken hearts

Honey, I could never be her

I'm missing too many parts

In all the salt and all the sand

Ground beneath my feet

In all the things I'll never understand

Where silence and chaos meet

Here is where I'll always stay

Lost in memories

Here is where they always say

Time and matter freeze 

And thus we find: it doesn't matter

All these wasted things

All our lives, lost in mindless chatter 

This is what life brings

In all the caramel and all the sea

Crashing about my head

In all these things - remember me

And everything I said

For if all is mindless and forgotten 

And every summer fades

Tell me, did it really happen?

Obscurity cascades 

I'll let it crash and wash me clean

I'll let myself forget

Everything I could ever mean

Try if you must - you can't hold onto it

I'll let go and watch them rust

All the things I could have done better

I can disperse into sand and star dust

But I can never be her

I Alone

I wanted to be sincere 

I wanted to explain

But all the silver linings 

Don't cover all the pain

I can't catch my breath now

I can't control my head

All my thoughts circle

All my reason fled

Catch it if you can

Catch me if you dare

Wrap your arms around me

Watch my seams tear

Cinch them all together

Calloused hands do it well

Accosted by the world

All the pieces swell

I'll fall to pieces

I'll scatter in the wind

Everything is ash now

Each moment has thinned 

I wanted to explain

I wanted to be sincere 

But all that remains

Is I alone, standing here