Flow

Thoughts spiraling still
Heart crumbling slowly

Echoing memories surrounding 

Distractions running out on me

Endless hours stretching on

Always wishing them away

Too many wasted seconds

How am I supposed to be okay?

Putting on a smile still

All too many reasons why

No one would understand anyway

Go on - it does no good to cry

Still, my strength falters

Or maybe it's always been a façade

Forever redefining how I see myself

Like shifting waters that are always flawed

Observe the whirlpool that is my mind

Now move on and forget

Grown accustomed to being a second thought

Crashing water - someday I'll drown in it

Heaven sent down a breeze

Entreating the faces to smile

Rain crept slowly in -

Into their stomachs to stir up bile

Spit it out and drink it in

Hoping and pushing it away

Erasing convictions and making them

Don't know how to make it all okay

Holding myself to such high standards -

Only have to fix everything, you know

Pour my heart out - suck it back in

Emotions must be controlled, but my thoughts still flow