I have my doubts
And anxieties
I keep myself warm
Turning away from the breeze
My skeletons are young
Flesh still dripping from their bones
My thoughts are fleeting
Blood racing with hormones
My eyes change color
Reflecting the answers in my head
It aches and throbs
In retribution for the flames I never fed
The fiery passion within
I smothered with harsh words and ice
Coldness grips my heart
It was never my device
I can't control my eyes
They leak and they turn red
I can't control my mouth
And the lies that it has bled
My heart races when it shouldn't
My voice shakes when I speak
My hands tremble often
I'm slow and I'm weak
My list of failings goes on
Forever, seemingly
My worst flaw of all
Is how often I find fault in me
Shrug off your past mistakes
Love yourself, they say
Sometimes I can
But sometimes I'm not okay
Is that okay?
Everyone feels a little darkness now and then
I'll pick myself up
And begin again
And anxieties
I keep myself warm
Turning away from the breeze
My skeletons are young
Flesh still dripping from their bones
My thoughts are fleeting
Blood racing with hormones
My eyes change color
Reflecting the answers in my head
It aches and throbs
In retribution for the flames I never fed
The fiery passion within
I smothered with harsh words and ice
Coldness grips my heart
It was never my device
I can't control my eyes
They leak and they turn red
I can't control my mouth
And the lies that it has bled
My heart races when it shouldn't
My voice shakes when I speak
My hands tremble often
I'm slow and I'm weak
My list of failings goes on
Forever, seemingly
My worst flaw of all
Is how often I find fault in me
Shrug off your past mistakes
Love yourself, they say
Sometimes I can
But sometimes I'm not okay
Is that okay?
Everyone feels a little darkness now and then
I'll pick myself up
And begin again
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ReplyDeleteThis poem makes me shiver
ReplyDeleteFrom the cold within our pasts
Will I ever forgive her
Will this poem be my last
I push away this darkness
Ignore this awful noise
The lies of my own madness
Tempt me with her lovely voice
No time for indecision
You have to make a choice
Continue on your mission
Or listen to the void
Let the ice around you shatter
Let your laughter fill the air
All the voices never mattered
And you beat them fair and square
Life is full of sorrow
If your heart lives in the past
Just keep looking at tomorrow
Touch the stars and don't look back
Touch the stars and don't look back
DeleteThey'll burn you up like coal
Let them melt your flesh
And ignite your soul
Let the ice around you shatter
Watch it all turn to rain
Dropping down so gently
Sprinkling the windowpane
No time for indecision
It all begins to burn
Holding back their tears
They never could learn
I push away the darkness
With the force of a sun
Super nova; black hole
All is said and done
This poem makes me shiver
Chase the dreams and they turn black
Burn up your future
Reach the stars and don't come back