I Alone

I wanted to be sincere 

I wanted to explain

But all the silver linings 

Don't cover all the pain

I can't catch my breath now

I can't control my head

All my thoughts circle

All my reason fled

Catch it if you can

Catch me if you dare

Wrap your arms around me

Watch my seams tear

Cinch them all together

Calloused hands do it well

Accosted by the world

All the pieces swell

I'll fall to pieces

I'll scatter in the wind

Everything is ash now

Each moment has thinned 

I wanted to explain

I wanted to be sincere 

But all that remains

Is I alone, standing here

Yet You Wonder At It All

Maybe I'm lost now

All my thoughts seem to fray

I'll tumble through stars

And watch the world float away

And where did you go?

Adrift in the deep

Search for blithe words

I'll not make a peep

Surrounded with silence

Get lost in my head

Shift through this dust

It will cling to your tread 

Explore this great vastness

So insignificant and small

Explained so clearly

Yet you wonder at it all

I wait for your answer

Never comes quick enough

You wait for me to say something

But what's the point of such stuff?

You never seem to listen

I never seem to say

I'll write it all out

And watch the words float away

Divide & Conquer

Let us divide and conquer -

I'll divide myself in half

One side to wail

One side to laugh

One side to smile

One side to sigh

One side to hold the other

When one needs to cry

I'll divide myself into pieces 

Conquer each one in turn

Put them all in boxes

To study but never learn

I'll label each box carefully -

Flaunt the pretty ones around

The others I'll bury

Out of sight deep in the ground

They unearth themselves sometimes

I drive them down again

Just not quick enough to

Avoid them causing pain

They rear their ugly heads

Somehow I never see

How slowly they creep up

And sink their claws in me

I hack at all the pieces

Divide and divide once more

Shove them all in their own boxes

Feel the absence in my core

I visit them in secret

When no one is around

Unable to fix the puzzle

I bury myself deep in the ground

Swaying

Before we get started

Understand just one thing -

Things are going to change

Turns out change is something time must bring

Hold tight - you might feel my mood swing

After it's finished 

Take just one lesson away -

Honey, nothing changes

All the mistakes must stay

Still holding - you can feel the ground sway

Begin again maybe

Eventually we'll get it right 

Eventually everything will make sense

Nothing hidden from the light -

Discrepancies bring the swinging into sight

One more time now

Negate all that doesn't fit

Everything paints a perfect picture

Take what you want, the rest we forget -

Only, the swaying won't quit

Dare to sway for awhile

Everything moves, you know

Anchoring down in place

Tears you up when harsh winds blow

Hold tight - pain comes when you grow

No Wounds At All

When I start to feel myself fall

Will you know to catch me?

When I don't know what I feel at all

Aside from anxiety 

If my breath catches in my throat

And I don't know how to stay afloat 

Will you be able to understand

Things that I can't explain

No wounds at all but still feeling pain -

Will you be there to squeeze my hand?

When your smile starts to fade

Will I know how to revive it?

When you're crushed under the choices you've made

And just want to quit

If you've forgotten what you're struggling for

And you don't want to try anymore

Will I be able to be there

In the way that you need 

Not asking for a thing though you bleed -

I'll stay and run my fingers through your hair

When things aren't easy and don't feel right

Will we handle it okay?

When we disagree, will we fight

And watch all the good times fray?

If you build your walls till I can't get through

And I feel fragile and blame it on you

Can it end better than I foresee?

Predicting all the ways things could go wrong 

Try to dispel them, but I'm not that strong -

I'm falling, honey - can you catch me?