Weather

On our way to oblivion 

Watching the stars sway

We'll hook our fingers together 

And feel the world pull away

Riding it out for better weather

But the weather doesn't stay

It leaves us empty, this everlasting void 

Fills us up with barren space

Seeps in through your eyes

Pushing tears down my face

I've never felt such defeat 

Or given up so much before

But I have given all of me

With no strength left to restore

Losing all but one simple plea:

Why can't you give me any more?

In the end, it's only pain

As dramatic as that seems

The price of life, love, hope -

Nothing but a shattering of dreams

On our way to awareness 

Watching our convictions sway

We'll let go again 

And regret pulling away

Returning always after the rain 

For the weather doesn't stay

Calm

And as we close our eyes

Listening to the ebb and flow

Connect it to our breath 

Draw it in, and let it go

I'll hold my heart in my hands

Create a space for it to be

Though crashing waters surround

With suffocating finality 

They build around my feet

And rise to cover my head

Ply at me with possibilities 

And words I never said

And as we sink to darkness

To drown beneath the shore

Lost in racing thoughts

Wondering if we could have done more

We return always to the breath

Though at times it may shake

We carve out spaces in time

And give all that it may take

What more can we do?

Accept it and float on

Try to soothe the torrents 

Until the storm is gone

And as we open our eyes

Still leaving space for us to be

I'll hold my heart and know:

It is enough to be taken care of by me

Matter

In these circles of time

Tell me, what is it you see?

The smallest of moments

Held up to infinity 

Caught here in space

Watching the light scatter 

Catching each mote

And bouncing off matter

What is there we might find

In all the words we hide behind

In all the lies we think to say

In all the truths that start to weigh 

In all the land and all the sea

In all of this, will I lose me?

With all the lines lost to time

With all we must forget

With all of the moments

Lost to obscurity and regret

Reflecting no more

The smallest of light

Fading away

Far from our sight

What is there we might lose

With all the little choices we choose

With all the thoughts we bury below

With all the things we don't mean to show

With all the land and all the sea

With all of this, can you find me?

In these circles of words

That bleed through the screen

The simplest things

Yet I know not what they mean

With all the lines I delete

Watching as they scatter

In the end what is left

Nothing but matter

Sand

There is the ancient, sinking to decay 

Rubble and dust enclose thee 

All of time turned into sand

And the top of the hourglass is empty 

Listen closely and you might hear

Sands susurrating in the wind

Only the softest of sounds

For even the air has thinned

To breathe is to be unfulfilled 

But no breath disturbs this night

The sun shall herd the shadows away

But there's none left to observe the light

There is the land, bathed in gold

Rays seeping across its skin

There is the sun, overpowering now

Until the clouds come in

The rain beats down with all its force

Encountering no resistance 

Listen closely and you might find

There is none left in existence 

To resist is to show a sign of life

But no life disturbs this day

For all of time turned into sand

And slowly dropped away

Phases

I want to start at the end

Can't get anything wrong that way

All the energy we spend

No longer wondering if we waste it every day 

Taking each step backwards 

Having nothing to run towards

Endings don't require 

Labored anxieties or thought 

Petrified notions all for naught 

Feeding off the memories of a fire

Reaching until even we expire

Or maybe we'll start in the middle 

Making mistakes nonetheless 

All my thumbs can do is twiddle 

Still waiting for someone to confess 

Kindly, before this turns into a memory 

If you're feeling lonely, please just tell me

Never believing this could last 

Going out to watch the sun set 

All I wonder is, are you bored yet?

Reasons to smile fading so fast

Each novelty slipping into the past 

Yet we must have begun at the beginning 

Once more worrying how it may end 

Universes go on spinning 

Blind to all the tears and energy we spend 

Or how we struggle day by day

Realizing we may not be going the right way

Endings don't need

Days spent arguing in my head 

Yearning for things you never said 

Empty of memories that might feed

The love that's trickling to a slow bleed