Dissolution

When all of time has passed away

And all that yet remains 

Is a ghost of a feeling

And neverending rains 

Drenching every atom 

Every speck of dirt

Eroding every pleasantry 

And every minor hurt

I'll drink in this madness 

Fill with numbing cold

Drowning out the ages

Erasing young and old

Skin will stretch and tear

Then dissolve to dust 

Absolving every grievance 

And every bit of trust 

When all of time begins again 

And all is made anew

Dry sands attempt to cover

The faint remembrance of you

Sieving all these feelings 

Fading each memory 

Til the world dries of madness 

And you've forgotten me

1461

It's all just days and days

Adding up to one last year

It's all an ongoing attempt 

To find ourselves right here

Here where life shifts

And new things unfold 

Here with deep breaths 

And your hand to hold

What's there to say now

In the middle space we are in

On the edge of a lifetime 

Just waiting for it to begin 

The path forward is set 

All that's left are details 

And compared to your eyes

Still every word pales 

So I'll try to draw on moonlight 

Pale and serene 

To convey something more than

Words could ever mean 

For a light with no burn 

That shines through the rain

And glides through the dark

Is like a love with no pain 

We've felt it on our fingers 

And there's nothing I'd rather do

Than continue learning

How to hold the moonlight with you

That Much Brighter

Wringing out these dripping days

Rain pounding on my head

Icicles may form here

Trickling down from all we've said 

Ignited in a moment

Ne'er to be seen again

Gliding towards understanding  

Lost inside oblivion 

Endeavoring to return to when -

The stars shown that much brighter 

The night was soft and cool

Eternity felt closer

Rushing on like such a fool 

Stay within this moment 

Turn it over in your mind

Offering no resolution 

My thoughts all fall behind

Yearning for when the stars all aligned 

Satisfy this last desire 

Entwined with every plight 

Lost amidst this churning chaos 

Find yourself out in the light 

Condensation

Summer heat may melt away

Each thought crossing my mind

All dripping from my fingers

Running far behind

Catch them for a moment

Hold still for but a breath

Inch your way towards understanding

Negate one burning death

Go forth to find where

Frost glistens and gleams

Over snow and ice

Rustling between my dreams

Searching for perfection 

Not to be found between my ears

Out amidst this condensation  

Wash away these dripping years

Let winter cold solidify 

All the thoughts within my mind

Narrowing the endless search

Down to something we can find

Here We Are

Here we are

Under swaying skies

Over grass and dew

Between me and you

Let us take a moment

To breathe in calm

And exhale strain

To soak in rain

Here we are 

With anxious heart

And scattered mind

All to find

Where lights dance

And colors merge

Where thought crowds 

And soaks in clouds 

Here we are

Under forgotten stars

Over rock and sea

Between you and me

Let us give a moment

To the passing years

To all we've done

Soaking in sun

Dust & Stars

Still the world spins on and on

Oceans turn to steam 

Maybe I could grasp it now

Entrap reality in a dream

Were it but a matter of

Holding it between my hands

Echoing sharper minds than mine

Raining golden sands 

Endeavor to catch the sunlight

Bring it with me throughout the day

Endeavor to feel the moonlight 

Turn it into pretty words to say

Were it but a matter of

Entreating every sky

Extracting no responses

Nor even the softest sigh

During this time of turmoil 

Uncertainty and changing tides

Still grasping at the edges 

Trapped amidst these divides 

And were it but a matter of

Not getting involved 

Damned to sink or swim together 

Solitarily, nothing is solved  

Turn it over in your mind now

Accost the night to greet the dawn 

Reach for something better 

Still the world spins on and on

Here & Now

To focus my mind on this now -

Oh, if I were made that way

When there's so much else to dwell on

So many other things to say

Too many to pin down now

In a time of new turmoil and old

Yet also this new certainty 

The thoughts all bend and fold

But try to think on this now

Where the changing ages meet 

The feeling of spilled time  

The sound of shifting feet 

We’re starting a new chapter here

Stepping into twenty-four 

Building something different 

Something I’ve never done before

It’s so hard to focus on right here

With such enticing things to plan

And all the latest drama 

Causing my mind to pan 

But try to value right here

This one day amidst three hundred sixty-five

The feeling of the sun

And the sound of being alive

Gold

To choose, this choice, once chosen just to prove

That this time, of all times, this time we will move

Outside of what is comfortable, what's expected, done with ease

Not pausing to consider who it might not please

Yes, this time with conviction, with surety, with pain

We will not, must not, do not let your resolve wane 

For out of boiling chaos, out of rage, out of heat

Maybe we can find where despair and hope meet

And we can choose the latter, choose to change, choose to grow

Instead of repeating these cycles, these patterns, these devils that we know

To take a step forward, step away, step between

All the things never said and all the things we’ve seen 

Yes, this time with clarity, with honesty, with pain

With the hope of the seasons and the force of a driving rain

For out of stifling ice, out of stagnation, out of cold

We'll start a raging fire and bathe in endless gold

Cascading Decades

Look how far we’ve come now

Turn about and view our tracks

How they twist and turn

Strive and relax

I’ll strive once more now

To find the words to convey 

The point of composing   

This winding array 

Seasoned by time

I might relax instead

Nothing left to prove

To the voices in my head

Listen to the soft hush

Like footprints in the snow

They compress and refill 

Shrink and grow

I’ll compress myself into

These rambling lines

Squeeze a word til a 

New meaning shines 

I’ll refill with memories 

Old thoughts to create new

Expand lost feelings

All in an effort to -

Feel my soul shifting

And let the words cascade

I'll wrap them around me

As we close out my first decade

The Centuries Beat In Vain

And when the days whirl around you

Grasp a moment, hold it tight

Anchor for a second

I’ll try to help it last the night

Not to be existential

Still carried in the back of my mind

Twirling evermore, or until the stars are aligned 

Once more, help me find the reason

New years spilling so fast

Eternity insuring - nothing at all will last

Perhaps we’ll find a purpose 

Echoing through the centuries 

Reaching through time

Fragmented in the breeze 

Either found or created

Create this moment with me

To return to always in memory

Memories may become tainted 

Old feelings tend to wane 

Maybe we can make them 

Echo evermore, once more again

Nary a doubt that - against one perfect moment

The centuries beat in vain

One Moment More

Tangled thoughts and

Harrowed hearts all

Disperse in the end

Close your eyes

Leave them behind

This is where we mend

With time to spare

Light catching your hair

I’ll just watch you shine

With no words to bare 

For none compare 

To one so divine 

To hold you here

One moment more

Is all I ask of life

To die would be

A meaningless thing

My heart would yet run rife

With lack of sleep

Small price to reap

Your fingers laced in mine

With dreams so deep

Love, be mine to keep

My eternal Valentine 

Spare Seconds

Despite all of the reaching

Rectifying and beseeching  

Our feet have moved not at all

Wandering forward and back with each rise and fall

Never to stray far from this place

Inspiration leaves no trace

Nocturnal whispers all run dry

Gusts of wind born to die

In the necessities of the day to day

Novelty gets in the way

No time left for anything new

Energy sapped before the week is through

Collecting spare seconds still

Endeavoring to save enough to fill

Stoking flames and mending hearts

Sapped, we simply stare at all the parts

In spite of all this stalling

Trembling and falling

In all the seconds that we prise

Entwining aspirations with the skies

Struggling back and forward with each fall and rise

Be Left Not Wanting

Shall I resolve to be

Better than before -

If better were so simply defined

If one philosophy were keeping score

If I could find a final truth

And be left not wanting more

Barring this, I’ll ask myself -

What is it you need?

What better might be aspired to

That will successfully feed

A soul that simply wants

To no longer bleed

When the things that heal and the things that wound

Are so often intertwined

Is it better to cast it all away

Than continue trying to find

A way to keep the good in it

Without losing your mind

So what can I resolve 

With the nonsense that I write?

Lack of action leads to

No endings in sight

In the end, we’re just a frightened child

Still holding on so tight

So shall I resolve to be 

Older and wiser than before -

To learn to soothe my mind and heart

To cultivate peace at my core

To learn to breathe and love and live 

And be left not wanting more