Sunlight

Coldness nipping at my toes
Sun shining on my skin
Forgot how much I missed this
Once more, let me begin -

Forgive all I dislike
Release every silly plan
All the moments I tried to cling to
And all the times I ran

I've been drowning out the silence
And shutting out the snow
Been denying all my thoughts
Trying not to let the feelings show

But they poked through my skin
Red dots peppering my hand
Hold them so they don't shake
While I try to prove I understand

Been waiting for something to happen
Surely, this couldn't last forever
I'll try to enjoy it while it's here
Watch all the old notions sever

I'll bask in sunlight and shiver
I'll watch the world pass by
I'll not forget to breathe
Lying quietly under the sky

Though I never really know
It's nice to pretend
That there's certainty in life
And everything will mend

None of that matters anymore
Time washed away it's meaning
We'll find new things to fret over
The past only occasionally intervening

I'll forgive myself a million times
But it's all imprinted on my skin
I'll relax and cleanse my mind
Once more, let me begin -