Regurgitation

Only a thousand thoughts inside my head
While a million words I have bled
A trillion masks I have shed

Falling asleep, pen in hand
Trying to make the world understand
None of this was ever planned

In a web of words I've been caught
In a dozen lies I never bought
In a hundred notions I never thought

In a never ending spiral that is time's
In wasted space and wasted rhymes
Shackled here for someone else's crimes

False and true mixed in my mind
Neither of them especially kind
Both of them making me blind

Living in a nightmarish fantasy
The truthful things fight back at me
Watch me escape into reality

With raging waters at my core
Stuck calmly here though inside's a war
Regurgitating thoughts forever more