My Little Brother

My little brother is: A Pill
He never thinks of others and always takes his fill
He's lazy, immature, and all around a pain
He's always trying to swindle others for his own gain
He thinks I'm bossy, rude, and the type of person who always thinks they're right
We often make each other mad and we always seem to fight

My little brother is: My Friend
We'll stick together till the very end
I listen to him, and him to me
When one is sad the other tries to make them happy
We can sit and talk for hours, for each other we'll always be there
Even if we get in each other's hair

My little brother is: A Hassle
When we were small he'd always topple my block castle
I'm constantly stressing and worrying about him
Afraid he'll be hurt, whether emotionally or by breaking a limb
I try to shield and protect, but he gets angry when I do
I often try to parent him, so he thinks I'm a hassle too

My little brother is: Just That
We disagree like dog and cat
We're worst enemies and best of friends
How we act towards each other every day differs and depends
We fight, we laugh, we yell, we listen, and we tease each other
And I know I'll always love my little brother

Blind Wisdom

I'm no natural
None of this comes easy
I'm no perfect girl
That's just not me
You think my words flow
So simply from my mind
You think I find it easy
To obey the rules, blind

But you aren't here for my struggles
You don't see when things go wrong
You don't notice
When my morality isn't strong
You don't understand
The tornado inside
You don't realize
All the times I have lied

It isn't real
These things that I write
You think they're me
But they're not quite
I try to find myself in these words
But I'm never completely there
The words hide me
The sentences tear

It's all a lie, you know
That is what I do
But my lies are so pretty
That even I think they're true
Trying to sort out
The truths from the lies
Is impossible
For each word denies

Can you help me understand?
Tell me, am I false?
Is everything about me a lie?
Do I even truly have a pulse?
None of it makes sense
None of it rings true
Up is down
Red is blue

And it all just keeps going
None of it ever ends
The bold cry in silence
While the coward defends
The honest lie
The sad smile
I pour out my heart
And I'm lying all the while

Complete honesty?
No; I must save face
Blunt the sword
Poison the lace
Beautify the ugly
And damage the good
I don't know how to stop
But would I, if I could?

For these words
With beauty and grace
Make people feel
And think to question the lace
Is it so bad
To fictionalize my soul?
To make everything lovely
Or more horrid than coal?

Is it so bad
To want to paint myself a thing of wisdom?
Is it so bad
To want to build myself a protective kingdom?
Answer me honestly
Tell me what you think
For I am not a thing of wisdom
And I need someone to make my list of questions shrink

So what do you say?
What is the answer?
Do tell me if you know
But only if you're sure

Weak Link

So quiet
Too quiet
Can't hear myself think
There's a ringing
In my ears
That just won't shrink
I hold my tongue
For if I don't
I sink
I ruin
Everything
For I'm the weak link

There's a face
In the window
That is me
But I don't
Recognize it
For inside I look differently
I turn away
For I don't
Want to see
For when
I do
I'm filled with such vanity

People say
It's the inside
That's important
Yet still everyone tries
To fix their shells
With such intent
And no one cares
To fix their souls
It's all so bent
I know this yet still
I worry over my shell
And worry not when my morality is spent

I need
Outside noise
So my thoughts will shrink
In the silence
My thoughts are so loud
I can't think
I need to keep away
From my reflection
But I can't blink
In a world
Full of differences
Weakness is our link

There's beauty
To be found
In the simplest things
So much beauty
In a blossom
Yet we'd rather have rings
So much beauty
In a simple life
Yet we'd rather be kings
So much beauty
From time
Yet we cringe as the pendulum swings

We use makeup
To look younger
Or to look older
In our vanity
We yearn to grow
Bolder
But all it does
Is make us grow
Colder
For with such cover up
How can we show ourselves
And not simply shrug a shoulder?

Just enough noise now
To finally manage
To think
I break away momentarily
From my loud thoughts and
Insecurities that won't permanently shrink
I walk away from the glass
But still do not manage,
with my mind's eye, to blink
My last loud thought is -
Will we ever break the weak
And start a new, stronger link?

Choosing Okay

You can try to change me
You can try to hurt me
You can try to pull everything away

You can try to shake me
Maybe even break me
But here is where I stay

You can try to knock me down
You can try to make me frown
But I'm not leaving here today

You can turn against me the whole town
In my tears try to make me drown
But I'll still be okay


Because I'm bulletproof
Maybe a bit too aloof
And you can go ahead and try to make me pay

But you can't make me goof
My heart is shatterproof
And I won't die down and lay

Not gonna lay down and die
Not gonna let you make me cry
You can't ruin my day

I'm made of thicker stuff, no lie
You can go ahead and deny
But I think you know - You can't make my sky gray


You can pull everything apart
Maybe even break my heart
But I decide what I do here today

You can shoot me with poison dart
But your hateful words can't make me depart
Unless I don't act the best way

I will decide
Whether I give in to hate or pride
You don't choose what I say

In my life I have lied
And, oh, how I've cried
But right now in this moment - I choose to be okay

My Soul Evoked

Come weep with the willows
And stand firm with the oaks
Come lay bare your soul
As nature evokes

Leaves fall like tears
As they die away
Their death brings us beauty
To behold here today

Blossoms give us fragrance
As they come in bloom
Beauty in a moment
Then they retire to their tomb

Stand firm, sweet willows
And weep, strong oaks
They shall lay bare their souls
As nature evokes

There is beauty in death
And beauty in life
But you may not see it
For it hides beneath tears and strife

It all seems a contradiction
This beauty hidden in tears
But courage comes only
When there are fears

So come weep and sing with the willows
Come stand firm and dance with the oaks
I shall lay bare my soul
As nature evokes