Sunlight

Coldness nipping at my toes
Sun shining on my skin
Forgot how much I missed this
Once more, let me begin -

Forgive all I dislike
Release every silly plan
All the moments I tried to cling to
And all the times I ran

I've been drowning out the silence
And shutting out the snow
Been denying all my thoughts
Trying not to let the feelings show

But they poked through my skin
Red dots peppering my hand
Hold them so they don't shake
While I try to prove I understand

Been waiting for something to happen
Surely, this couldn't last forever
I'll try to enjoy it while it's here
Watch all the old notions sever

I'll bask in sunlight and shiver
I'll watch the world pass by
I'll not forget to breathe
Lying quietly under the sky

Though I never really know
It's nice to pretend
That there's certainty in life
And everything will mend

None of that matters anymore
Time washed away it's meaning
We'll find new things to fret over
The past only occasionally intervening

I'll forgive myself a million times
But it's all imprinted on my skin
I'll relax and cleanse my mind
Once more, let me begin -

As For Me

The lonely in-between 
For those who never quite belong
In this place or the other

It all feels slightly wrong

As for me, all I want

When it all boils away

Is consistency in myself

And for everything to be okay

But myself, it denies me

Such simplicity of life

And life, it refuses

To be without strife

In between who I am

And what it is you see

Is the idea that I act

The way I think you see me

And I like me the most

When seen through your eyes

Are they rose-colored still?

Have I lost my disguise?

As for me, all I have

At the end of the day

Is a million racing thoughts

And not a whole lot to say

In this in-between

Where it's not one thing nor the other

Your smile means nothing to me

But I'm dying to see another

And nobody quite fits

Not one is like the rest

And no one knows the truth

After everything I've confessed 

It's all ambiguous and vague

Because nothing's absolute

We're all unique and yet the same

So very fickle and resolute 

As for me, I'm in the in-between

Where all of us reside

I'm not quite sure where we're going

But I'll enjoy the ride