Regurgitate

Shall we spin some nonsense 

Avoid going deeper today

Ambiguity is the best defense 

When you don't know what to say

When you don't know what to feel 

Just pretend none of it is real

Disassociate

And tip the scales

Towards fairytales

Leave behind your fate

I'll step outside to get some air 

And calm my pounding heart

All my seams are starting to tear 

And I'm just trying not to fall apart 

Breathing beneath an icy sky 

In an effort to keep my eyes dry

Force the feelings down

Press them tightly to my core

Til I don't feel them anymore 

Let them all drown 

But let us return to nonsense 

I don't want to explain myself today 

Lose them all in pretense 

And endless shades of gray

Draining all the colors out of the sky

Leave the ground barren and dry

Accept this endless fate

Of blank faces and inner war 

Why expect anything more

Than all they regurgitate 

Endeavor

Wading into dissent 
Hear the waves ebb and flow
At the very heart of the matter
Tear them down and let them go

I can’t force the words
Falling from my face
I can’t mold them into
Truthfulness with grace

Oozing emotion and fear
Locked it within for so long 
Daring not to release 
Told always that it’d be wrong

How can it be wrong?
Endeavoring simply to be me
Tear down the expectations 
Rain down reality 

Until it’s all washed away
Til every lie has been scrubbed clean
Hear the waves settle softly, and finally be seen