Hold My Breath

If you tire of trying

    And I tire of letting you

We'll get around to dying

    Nothing else to do

I'll give up on complying

    Death is a battle all lose

    Wearing slowly at my muse

Lie to me awhile

    And if I can't believe

Let my mouth fill with bile

    I'll tear the heart from my sleeve

Hold tightly to your smile

    Take what I can get

    Forgive you so you can forget

Of all that remains -

    Of all that is left -

Let it run through my veins 

    Raging and bereft 

Desired all these pains

    You gave them to me willingly

    Often and so wantonly

Make it better someday

    Undo all you did

You've nothing left to say

    Telling all they forbid 

Better to cut ties when they fray

    Only to pick up the pieces

    But it all still decreases 

Reality pulls at me

    Remember - it all ends in death

Echoes of all I gave freely

    Echoing - I'll hold my breath

And pull back at reality

    And wait for you to breathe

    Till my blood begins to seethe 

Tire of it all and let go

    Hold only that which feels right

Hold on until there's nothing left to show

    Etch it into our hearts and watch it fade out of sight

A Place To Begin

Dusting off the day
Enter my head - what shall it say?
After all that's happened since the last

Recalling all that has passed

I suppose I've once again spun

Around our blazing, boiling sun

Making fading memories

Nodding softly in the breeze 

Oh, they've only just begun

To dance they're twisting, spiraling dance

Winding down each choice and chance

Hold on tight - we've time left still

And a lifetime of blank space to fill

Take my hand and run with me -

Yesterday's gone and I've things to see

Over the mountains and through the sky

Until I've nowhere left to fly

Hunting every possibility 

All I must do first is quit

Doubting myself and shrugging a forfeit

Try as many times as I must

Hands aren't meant for collecting dust

Of all the things I could be and have been

Up to this point, and after my twentieth spin -

Gathering new things to try for a while

Holding onto the ones that make me smile -

Til the end, there's no end - just a place to begin

Nacre

Too many things rushing to the surface 
Give me time to sort them out

It's all a bit confusing now

Each word full of doubt

And what's the reason now?

Can't pinpoint the source 

All the future longing

Or all the past remorse

I'll step outside and watch the world

Spinning til I close my eyes

Pretend it's all concrete and still

Cocooned in all these lies

Grit my teeth and hold on tight

Time's still slipping from my skin

It smooths and wrinkles

Scars and fades again

Couldn't it all just stop for now?

Your body still warm beside me

I want all the moments back

Hold them for eternity 

I'll step inside and close the curtains 

Get lost inside my head

The morning sun attempts to rouse me

But I'll just stay in bed

Bite my lip and look away

Time takes everything, I know

In all the fleeting seconds

And years that pass so slow

Too many things settling on the surface

Getting tired of setting them straight 

Treasure each moment that I can

Before it becomes too late