Apocryphal Probity

Maybe I care too much and 

Maybe I don't care enough

Maybe it's worth the effort and 

Maybe it shouldn't be this tough 

It's always such a struggle but

Things worth having are

Isn't that the way it works?

Clinging to each wished on star

I don't know what we're doing here

I don't know what to think

I worry it'll all disappear 

If I so much as blink

Maybe I'm tired of trying and

Maybe you are too

Maybe it isn't meant to be and

Maybe I don't really need you

It was so much simpler before but

I tell myself this is what I need

I could wash it all away but

Hearts are made to bleed

I don't know why I force it and

I don't know what to feel

I worry I'm much too vulnerable 

If I let myself be real 

Maybe it's all a fiction and

Maybe I'm just a lie

Maybe I'm just dreading the moment when

You inevitably say goodbye

It's always so confusing but

Things worth knowing are

I tell myself it can't hurt but

I still feel every scar

I don't know what to make of it

I don't know who to be

But maybe it's high time that

I let myself be me